Plug In Your Pain

I'm so tired and my head is so full. I'm trying so hard to follow God's path for me but there's just so much bull!
I don't wanna lose my focus, I don't wanna lose my way, but I also don't want to deal with this pain another day.
I have no one to talk to and I'm walking on eggshells trying to hide what I feel. I want to just let everything out but I can't even decipher what's real.
People say stuff that I'm sure is meant to be comforting and sweet. But it just reminds me how much I hurt and how close I am to admitting defeat.
Give it to God, just let it go. That is harder to do than you could ever truly know.
I have become a new me, but not in a good way. I am a shell of who I used to be but praying to feel normal again one day.
Who am I kidding, I can never be the same. But I do want to be whole, in Jesus' name.
I want to let go, trust, heal, and be free!
I want to be the me God has called me to be!
I'm going to get there one day, I pray it be sooner than later. I won't give up on God's plan for me by admitting defeat just because Satan's a hater.
I can make it; I will make it; I must make it. Because He said so.
I can't see how at this point, but He gave Phillipians 4:13 in His word and that's all I need to know.


(everyone has or has had a pain that they try to hide. A pain that seems like it's taking over and you don't know how to make it end, or how you can let it go, or how you can move on. Remember I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!)